Midterm and party saturday.

Oh hai guise, I told you I'll be back soon. University is getting quite fun and nostalgic as we reach the last days of the semester, a few people are already leaving to pursue other dreams and we will probably never see each other again, which is sad and comforting at some level (I guess for knowing they will be happy somehow). This monday we will be taking our midterm exam and I'm so nervous, I've gotten good grades in all the classes but still, it will be a lot of questions about over 40 different subjects I guess? That ain't easy.

Anyway, not studying yet (I already did during classes, so, wish me luck)... just getting ready for a bday party tonight. I hope there's tasty food over there cause I'm not much of a out-at-nights kind of guy.

I like these t-shirts, a few years back they were impossible to find in my country and look at it now. I've got a whole bunch of them! :P What should I wear? I haven't really visited any of the blogs I like in such a long time and some of them stopped blogging. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MY BORING LIFE NOW THAT I CAN'T READ ABOUT YOURS, PPL? WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME? o__o". Please, never stop blogging.

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Path.

I changed my layout (as it's usual whenever I write a post on here) a bit, added some new tags as an attempt to get me to post on here more often and added the 'reactions' feature, looking forward to see some activity on that one. Something has changed within me, I used to love blogging and writing about my routine, but now it just feels empty. My days are empty. I haven't been in love, I haven't taken photographs in ages and it makes me sad that I don't have the ideas to do it. I need to find a way, a new way of seeing things.

I really missed writing in english, it's been so long... am I making sense? Because it would be totally understandable if I'm not. All the series I watch are on hiatus (WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME TV EXECUTIVES?) and that sucks because I will be on vacations soon enough, which means I'll probably show up more than once in every three months.

This was just a notification post, sorry to bother. ˆ-ˆ'

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a letter i'd never send.

i know that what's happening is better for me, it is being hard for me to stand it, but i promised that I'd go on with this, i won't get back, not now, and being where i am. So, how come i sunk into my chair and began to write this? Even because i think that no one will read this, even you (to whom i pointed this text), and if you read this, i will probably not understand. I have no idea how i plucked up courage to write this, maybe a shit for you, but for me, these are the sincerest words, anyway i did it, and until now i feel no regret, maybe i will feel it later, and then i assure you, i will simply delete this picture and this caption. Since i knew you i noticed there was something different, something that another people didn't make me feel. I looked for answers many times, but i couldn't find them, but i've tried hard, i really tried hard. I was supposed to be your best friend, and you were supposed to be mine, and this used to confuse me more and more, i couldn't stop thinking about what would be the best thing to do, i couldn't decide between telling you the truth or denying my true feelings, for one week, i chose the first way, but i could feel that it wasn't the way that my heart desired, the way it did (and does) was the second (and hardest) way, a way full of thorns that would certain hurt me, unless i stop my real desire and begin from the scratch. That's what i did, and i keep doing. While i write this, i think how i'd be now, probably not writing this, haha, but i also wonder, if it was the best thing. I have been having uncountable stories here, and I've bee suffering from them too, so i fear for suffer again, and that's what i had against the feeling i gave you. I can't blame only myself for this whole situation, the fault is yours too, sometimes you flattered, buttlicked, always smiling at me as i approached you, these demonstrations of love and partnership confused me, i was always wondering what was right, and what only enchanted me, but deep inside wasn't what i really wanted and thought. I was without a escape valve, and the safety one i found was build a tough wall between us, I did so. This wall is still strong and i hope it keeps on this way, depending on me, it will, for a long time, and then i will be allowed to open my mouth and say, and that shitty (or wonderful) feeling has gone way! That's the time to keep in touch with each other again, before this, i assure you you wont. But you know..i've got a power, and this power makes me heal all my wounds fast, as i told you.

Thus healed, we will be happy together again.

And be aware that, i'm good without you here, and i feel i will reach my aim.

-This is for you, who shifted your name with me.

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Personality test.

So, I found out about this “personality test” thing called Myers-Briggs Type Indicator and decided to take it so I could find out where I fit in. As Stijn from tumblr labeled it, and I quote: “Basically, it’s a psychological test that labels you with one of sixteen predefined personality types.

Of course there are more than sixteen types of personalities, but that doesn’t mean this whole thing is nonsense.” Let me tell you this, I was blown away by how accurate the description of my test results were. I’m an INFJ and here are some highlights of my personality.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions.

They get “feelings” about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident.

This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

You can take the test here and read a bit more about your type here. If you do, shout out what's yours on a comment, I'd be glad to know it.

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NYE (and an engagement party)

image made by me & completely inspired by Lionel's post.

So this is it, 2012 has finally came. My thoughts and prayers are with all the ones in Japan who already suffered from an earthquake, even though there were no deaths it's still horrifying. Anyway, this year my family organized this nye' party SLASH engagement party (my uncle is marrying his cousin (yeah, that's right!) so we decided to join the two events in one).

It was actually pretty great and I had a little bit of fun, I couldn't drink though as I'm currently taking antibiotics -OH WHAT A BUMMER :(-. Nonetheless, as I'm the one who loves photography and actually owns a DSRL, they asked me to be the 'photographer' for the night. I took over 400 photos and I'm already lazy about editing and transferring them to everyone who wants it. (don't you just hate when you've to do that?). Let's talk traditions: this year I've decided that I wouldn't even think about the whole "new years resolutions"dilemma 'cos people always do that and nothing ever changes, I've learned that we are the change we want to see in the world (in our lives), therefore, every chance we hope of things being better at this new year comes from the inside out. There's no point on being bitchy about how 2011 sucked and that maybe 2012 will be better for some mystical reason... if we want this year to be better we need to make it so ourselves, don't we? So let's do it, let's have fun and go out and LIVE LIFE AS IF THERE'S NO TOMORROW.

Yadda yadda yadda, I suck at blogging >_<" so, if anyone's reading this: HAPPY NEW YEAR! Let's blog the hell outta this site and make new friends and learn from each others experiences.

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There's a blue-bird at my window. (or so it seems)

For the last couple of weeks, there's this little light blue bird who keeps crawling to my window and knocking on it. At first I was just bothered by it, then it kept coming back and it just got weird. I've created this whole theory that the bird is reincarnated and is trying to warn me of something bad that might happen (crazy stuff, right? Yeah, I've got a lot of free time) >_<".

I'm always trying to take photographs of him but whenever I get too close to the window it just flies away, minutes later it gets back to the knocking and singing and whatnot. Crazy theories aside, I've looked it up and found this heart-breaking explanation for what's happening:

This strange behaviour, however, has a less romantic, more scientific explanation. Birds attack shiny surfaces because they see their own reflections. In the case of a window, the bird does not see through the glass: it sees a reflection of the outside, possibly trees and the sky, and another bird of its own species. The real bird does not recognize itself and mistakes the reflected bird for a competitor for territory or mates. It attacks the image in the window, trying to drive the other bird away.

I just hope the little guy doesn't hurt himself with all the 'fighting for his territory' scene. Here's a snapshot I was quick enough to take, just so you guys know this isn't all made-up. Have this ever happened to any of you? :)

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so this is christmas. (is it, really?)

I can't believe this year's been going on so fast it still feels like it was yesterday I was celebrating the years' eve. I know I've been slacking the whole 'blogosphere' for such a long time and it's mostly because I rarely get any comments, which is so disappointing and I put the blame on me for it, as I don't really go out and leave other people's blogs a comment.

Okay, my Christmas was so sad this year... mostly because my parents and I are going thru some really rough (financial) times, the place my dad works on is calling it and they will prob shut down by the end of january, my dad wasn't even paid for the month of december. We are actually planning on moving out of our current city to my dad's hometown, as he asked his brother for a little help and we are mainly waiting for the phone call to get things done for good.

Anyway, if anyone's reading this I wish a very Merry Christmas and all good things to be multiplied by 100 this next year, let's all hope for the best! As Shaman King once taught me: Para tudo nessa a vida se dá um jeito. ˆ-ˆ

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